Friday, September 16, 2005

When I Think of You

There’s a part of me that wants to fuck you silly every chance I get … for the pure and simple pleasure of it.

There’s another part of me that’s afraid of you. I’m worried that you’re playing with me. You have other motives and ultimately you’ll leave me in a crumpled heap like your predecessors.

There’s a part of me that wants to turn around and briskly walk away with no intention of glancing back.

There’s a part of me that wants to tell you to listen to your heart, be true to yourself, and live your life as if it’s the only one you’ve got ... no matter what the consequences are for me.

There’s a part of me that wants to hold your hand and look into your face while I listen to your worries and concerns. I want to be with you as a good and true friend. I want to understand.

There’s a part of me that wants to make Love to you a thousand different ways. I want to share pleasure with you and feel your heart beat pressed against my chest.

There’s a part of me that wants to cry in your arms, not because I want you to make it all better, but because I want to believe you’re strong enough to hold me until I’m done. You’ll whisper sweet things in my ear and I won't be alone.

There’s a part of me that wants to fly away with you on a magic carpet and live a dream come true.


At 6:13 AM, Blogger Al said...

Here's a hug sweets

At 7:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There's a part of me that really gets this and, to some degree, feels this in every relationship I've ever been in.
There's a part of me that is really happy to have read it.

At 7:55 AM, Blogger Blazngfyre said...

I feel that part of you, for it is part of me as well.

At 8:13 AM, Blogger theresa said...

Al - From you, that's especially good.

Popeye & Blaze - I decided to post this because it does seem very universal, even though it was borne out of something very personal.

Sidenote: Today is my parent's 44th wedding anniversary. They are a beautiful couple who are still very much in Love with one another.

At 8:14 AM, Blogger Mr 5.25 said...

Wow, that was one of the most amazing posts you have ever written.

At 9:52 AM, Blogger ZooooM said...

Super T, you amaze me every post. It's like you reach into your heart and show the rest of us that we aren't alone in such a beautiful way.

And it is amazing, because while we relate to you on your posts - It also confirms that certain people have talents far beyond others - and you definitely have one in writing.

At 10:19 AM, Blogger Tiger said...

...& it's when all those parts coincide that the Real Magic begins...

Thanks for the gentle hand offered--virtual as it may be--it's still nice.


At 12:19 PM, Blogger Julie said...

I love reading what you write! I think you are so smart, sensitive, sexy, brave and lovely! Thanks for sharing.

At 1:09 PM, Blogger Blazngfyre said...

Congrats to your parents!!!!
May they have another 44 blissful years together!


At 1:16 PM, Blogger Larry Jones said...

Wow. You sure have a lot of parts. A guy doesn't know where to start...

At 8:20 PM, Blogger No_the_game said...

There is part of me wants to open up and tell you that I would love to feel the way u do

There is part of me wants to lock all my feelings in side me because it has never been appreciated

There is part of me fight with me tells me be true yourself and express ur feelings. Somebody will value it.

There is part of me tells me why should u be cheaper when u can be valued pricelessly

There is part of me wants to screem and tell the world I have been hurt but part of me tell me you let urself to be hurt.

I am going to write about it on my blog.
U r such a good writer

At 10:35 PM, Blogger theresa said...

Mr. 5.25 - Shucks! You're a big Sweetie Pie!

Zoooom - Thanks. It's funny how we all have similar hopes and fears, yet we often have so much trouble connecting with one another.

Tiger - When it comes to Love, I still believe in magic. And when it comes to friends, I hope I always have a hand to lend.

Julie - Geesh! Now, I'm really blushing. Thank you.

Blaze - Thank you for the warm wishes. My parents are a great example of True Love.

Larry - It's not so very complicated, my dear. You know what to do. You start with an honest and genuine gesture.

No_the_game - When your heart is bruised and shy, it needs time. Believe that you're not alone. Believe that when you're ready there will be better things for you.

At 11:51 AM, Blogger Bougie Black Boy said...

There's a part of me that wants to tell you the secret. The secret is that women have all the control and us, men, don't have any. And once everyone realizes that--we'd all be better off.

At 10:46 AM, Blogger nosthegametoo said...

Theresa: I think this is a FANTASTIC post. I absolutely loved it. There is nothing worse than having a fundamental imbalance in a relationship. It leaves us open to exploitation. I think most of us struggle with the chore of finding someone that can appreciate our thoughts, our flaws, and our personality quirks (the reasonable ones. I don’t expect anymore to fall at my feet.).

I believe imbalance comes from misunderstanding those words and methods of communication we and our respective partner use everyday. Words must have meaning, and that meaning must be backed up by action. Saying it does not make it so. And unfortunately, feeling it does not make it so either. This is the flaw in romanticism.

It would be wonderful to find someone who could appreciate me in more than just word, but in action. But then again, in the past, I’ve known several women who preferred empty words over action.

There is DEFINITELY a part of me that is looking to eliminate imbalance in my life.


Peace and Love

At 12:03 PM, Blogger Kyle Stich said...

Beautifully passionate prose, invoking in me that sweet struggle between chancing it or running from it.

At 2:36 PM, Blogger Queen Of Pink said...

That was beautiful T. Absolutely beautiful.

At 2:06 AM, Blogger Monty said...

I just love the raw emotions that ooze from this blog. I come here and get what I need. Thank you Theresa, you're my Bob Dylan, and he's the best!

And thank you too, Mr. Jordan. I think you just may be right. If so, then all we guys have to do is to give up any control in our relationships with women.

I wonder what Theresa will say about that?

At 6:19 AM, Blogger theresa said...

Stephen - I've heard versions of that secret before. Somehow it's hard to fathom when I'm falling or when my heart is breaking.

Nosthegametoo - Stiving for balance is a never-ending process. Once you feel like you have it, you must take care to nurture it.

Kyle - What a perceptive man you are!

Queen - Thank you Sweet Girl!

Monty - I hardly think I offer a Dylanish ooze, but thank you for the compliment.


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