Thursday, February 02, 2006

15 Fears

I’m afraid I’m wasting all my time.

I’m afraid I’m making the biggest mistake of my life.

I’m afraid I’m as ugly as my mother said I was.

I’m afraid I’m not as beautiful as my father thinks I am.

I’m afraid to let myself need you.

I’m afraid to admit that I’m lost.

I’m afraid to lose control.

I’m afraid you’ll see me crying,

I’m afraid you won’t care if you do.

I’m afraid I’ll let everyone down.

I’m afraid it’s all been a big misunderstanding.

I’m afraid of what I could accomplish if I really tried.

I’m afraid you’ll want more from me than I have to give.

I’m afraid of your reaction.

I’m afraid to love you too much.

18 Comments:

At 10:20 AM, Blogger Al said...

Hugs & Kisses

 
At 10:32 AM, Blogger littlefeet said...

i have been there...

hugs to you...

peace...

 
At 10:45 AM, Blogger theresa said...

Al & Monkey - XOXOXO, Thanks

To all - I'm doing okay. This is more like a "Things to do" list.

 
At 11:41 AM, Blogger Ron Southern said...

You're afraid of your shadow. But it gives you something to do when things get iffy.

 
At 12:54 PM, Blogger JayneSays said...

"I’m afraid of what I could accomplish if I really tried." Oh, sister, want to join my support group on this one? This is going to be my February theme. Honestly, I'm excited to see what you will do and become this year. Can you feel it? Turning around as you have and shaking hands with your demons is the first step, or so the Zen masters say. . .

 
At 4:05 PM, Blogger Steve said...

I have heard that "Love is letting go of fear." But then, where is the longing?

 
At 5:46 PM, Blogger Larry Jones said...

You may have some of these fears. I know I do. Inevitably I have been forced to face them, and the pain was sharp, but after a while it ended, and I grow stronger with each fear behind me.

Thank you, sweetheart, for this stark look at the darkness.

 
At 8:44 PM, Blogger nosthegametoo said...

Now that you mention it... maybe I should figure out exactly what I'm affraid of.

Once again, you've shined light to my world of horrible ignorance.

 
At 9:11 PM, Blogger theresa said...

Ron - ... a different perspective!

Jayne - I love how you always seem to "get" me. Can't wait to read you in February!

Steve - The angst of love is achingly sweet, but it's best if its followed by that freeing feeling of complete acceptance.

Larry - Thank you. What an inspiring and supportive message to leave for me.

Nosthegametoo - Your are hardly ignorant, Sweetheart. Good luck with your list.

 
At 10:34 PM, Blogger Cat said...

WOW Theresa. You should make a list of things you AREN'T afraid to do...

...Start with, "I'm not afraid to bare my soul on my blog."

I wish I could be more like that.

You rock.

Totally.

 
At 8:09 AM, Blogger theresa said...

Cat - after a comment like that, I can't even pretend to be annoyed with you about your insane complicity at AC's blog.

 
At 9:49 AM, Blogger Spin_Doc1 said...

Welcome back, nice post.

 
At 11:48 AM, Blogger Dick the Boomer said...

You are strong, beautiful, passionate, compassionate, and brave. Don't forget that!

 
At 2:17 PM, Blogger Shephard said...

I'm with Jayne, we need to start a support group for "that one."
~S

 
At 10:43 PM, Blogger Polyman2 said...

Ackowledge, but never give in to fear-
instead confront and control it.
Theresa- it will only make you stronger.

 
At 1:53 PM, Blogger AndyT13 said...

I concur with Polyman2 and I suggest the following:
The best way to defeat fear is get right in it's nasty ugly little face and give it both middle fingers. What's it going to do? Scare you?

 
At 3:20 PM, Blogger Laurie said...

We all have those insecure little fears; the key is to conquer them!

 
At 5:46 PM, Blogger Faltenin said...

BINGO!

What do we win if we have them all?

 

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